In Life:
I know how to get somewhere.
In Dreams:
I can only see one step at a time, and come up against obstacles and delays.
In Life:
I know how to get somewhere on time.
In Dreams:
I encounter obstacle after obstacle and never make it to the destination of focus.
In Life:
I see the sun.
In Dreams:
I’m either indoors, it’s nighttime or when I am outdoors – my vision does not extend far beyond my bubble however, there is a sense of ominous clouds above or an environment that would indicate overcast skies and a damp atmosphere.
In Life:
I ensure my affairs are in order, everything is in its place.
In Dreams:
I find myself without my wallet, without my clothes, (underwear still on THANK GOD), and frantically trying to reach the hotel service desk to get a free room to pull myself together due to not being able to find any of my belongings.
In Life:
I have trouble expressing myself with diplomacy and grace, with most of the time holding back out of fear of hurting another.
In Dreams:
I am already judged, with no explanation provided. Resulting in
others already disappointed in me, without my voice being heard.
In Life:
I take care of my dental hygiene.
In Dreams:
My teeth are all falling out (although it’s been a while since I’ve experienced that particular dream), with the sensations felt in my body and a resounding WTF is happening in my brain.
I have come to realize that my dreams have always been spent in a state of deep stress, confusion, frantic behavior, and ominous environments. (I have to get to a meeting but I’m in a building that isn’t like my workplace and I’m to find my way there with no assistance from others, spending what seems like hours in a maze to get to my final destination).
Some say, that we work out our daily lives in our dreams and if this is so, then I’ll be honest, this woman is troubled by that hypothesis. I don’t seem to work anything out in my dreams as I’m in a constant state of stress. Trying to get to the next step… all the while feeling panic, embarrassment, confusion, stress, and fear of disappointing someone.
I have these feelings in my daily life, I simply know how to mask, pretend, do all the things to have a sense of feeling as if everything is in order, that I have all my ducks in a row and that I am keeping up with appearances. Don’t get me wrong, I do have my shit together however, my nagging thoughts inform me that my authentic mental state is that of what occurs in my dreams. Does my state of mind need to get better for my dreams to become happier, more uplifting, fun even? Why not have it the other way around?
The takeaway I gleaned from this realization is the gratitude for awareness as well as an intensified resolve to change my perception about things. This practice will warrant results however it’s important for all to know, this is a process that takes time and is usually NEVER complete! Sounds frustrating and one may ask themselves, why bother if the work is never done? Simply put, the process of life can be a lot less painful, and my dreams can be way more pleasant if I actively work on switching up how I normally perceive situations in daily life.